My new attempt at a change...

My weight...something I have struggled with my whole life...from a not-thin kid, to a chubby teenager, to an overweight adult...ugh
I tried diets all my life, even when I was a kid but I never did get it right...I never learned how I should eat and I never wanted to exercise either:P  I can't blame it on having children because I was overweight before them and I always went back to my pre-pregnancy overweight weight.  I never viewed myself as being fat, but I wasn't confident in my weight either and I guess I just didn't have the drive to do anything about it, didn't want to count calories and go to a gym 5 days a week. 
It wasn't until I worked at Costco that I figured out that I really could lose weight, I was active, very active, packing and pushing carts...I loved it and dropped 40 lbs in the process.  I felt amazing and confident!!  Then I decided to leave Costco when I figured out how to be the one raising my children and supporting them at the same time.  I left in July 2007 and I did pretty well with my weight there for a while, then I just stopped paying attention.  So here it is almost 4 years later, and I've put all that weight back on without really realizing it, yeah I knew I had gained weight because, obviously, my little jeans weren't fitting anymore but I didn't think I had gained that much back. wth, what did I let happen!!!  That's what I get for getting out the scale, a major wake up shove, do something!!  So now I am...I started a diet on Monday(4/25) and I am very excited about it.  I weighed myself Mon morning and was at 179.4, bought a digital scale so I couldn't fudge my weight:)  Though I can't resist weighing myself daily, I'll only be counting what I weigh weekly.  I have fluctuated a couple times which is frustrating and motivating at the same time, its keeping me going to see if I can get that number smaller!